to my neighbour

Yesterday I received from my neighbour a card. It was a nice Christmas card in a small envelope on which was written "To: My Neighbour". I thought it was a really nice gesture, surelly unexpected. I was surprised when she gave it to me thinking not many people still do these kind of things these days, one good example is that she was the only one out of the 6 flat neighbours that I live with in the same house.
My nice neighbour took advantage of the blank space in the card to write her own Christmas greeting and extend an invitation to go with her to her church. She wrote her email adress, phone number and flat number as we all live in the same building. I have always thought that very religious people feel empowered thus try to interfere into other people's lives and tell them what to do just because they... have read many books about god and can tell the difference between right and wrong when to me they are actually robots repeating what they have read. This actually gives meaning to these kind of people and also gives them false authority. Just like I had some group of people similar to Jehovah's witness coming to my house. At that time I was living in the same with other five people, each with their own room sharing the rest like kitchen and bathroom. One of them let the group in, I think overwhelmed by their insistence. As I was saying, they started preaching. They said that Jesus has come for the secong time on Earth, that he has come to save us and that we must act according to their specifications if we want to be by Jesus's side.
How can anyone have the guts to say something like that? It is very easy to say things to people if they cannot question what is being said. Why should we listen to others telling us how to live when our lives are so short? If we think only about tomorrow then we cannot enjoy today and this way we are just wasting our time on Earth. Why there must be a "god" that controls everything that we do? If "God" makes the decision for us and "it was al mean to be" then we are just like some puppets who have no meaning and we are not guilty for any of the things that we do. We are not guilty if thoughts are put in our minds. If "God" had planned our lives from the beginning of time than he is a very cruel being. But I refuse to believe in the exitence of "god" or at lest, such a "god". As I was talking to an atheist friend a long time ago about "God" I just said the thought that came into my mind: "We believe in God so we can have someone to blame for all our mistakes and acredit the things that we do not understand yet". I am pretty sure that I am not the only one that has come up with this concept.
So I chose to just belief in myself and that I make my own future which can be changed at any time because we are always faced with the "fork in the road". Any small decicision that you make might lead to something big. Instead of thinking of what is to come after death just enjoy your life. We do not know why we exist and we live trying to figure that out. So some things are better left a mystery.
Listen to the latin poem by Horace and his advice "Carpe Diem" - Seize the day!